| everything is so up and down lately school.... work.... home....ryan i just wish everything could be how it was when i was younger. uncomplicated...... I'm happy christmas is coming soon. maybe that will fix things..... my grad photo's are tomorrow. heidi is gonna straighten my hair. i can't believe we are already a quater through the school year and i can't believe im graduating finally. im going to woodstock for part of christmas vacation.... that is if i can get time off work. im worried i wont be able to..... |
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| Been having a sort of rough week..... I finally got to go back to work this week which i was happy about cuz i need money for - My G1 - College App. processing fee - Driving school - When Ryan's down next week - Christmas and the big one COLLEGE!!!! i'm not really stressed about this stuff. well actually not at all because i know i'll be ok. but there is other stuff bugging me. I really can't stand being at home right now. it seems like everyone's picking on me. I especially can't stand being around matthew right now. everything he says and does DRIVES ME NUTS. i think he's made it his mission in life to make me miserable. I can't wait til next year when i'm at college. cuz i'll be able to get away from all the crap going on at home and i'll get to see Ryan WAY more. we just had our 9 month anniversary. he's coming down on the 3rd i can't wait. but i gotta figure out how to get a few days of his stay off work. i don't wanna get fired... or in trouble or anything...... well that's all for now.... |
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| well here's another rare entry. it's been over a month since the last time I wrote. oh well i've been to busy with school and work  I spent the past weekend in Woodstock with Ryan which was wonderful. I hadn't seen him since Labour and hadn't been to Woodstock since early July so it was nice to get up there and see everyone again. as usual his mom made us a DELICIOUS meal. when Ryan was working his parent's took me into London to show me Fanshawe (the college i'm planning on going to) The night I came back I fell down some stairs ( about 5 lol) and badly sprained my ankle. I spent four hours at the hospital on monday night which was KILLER! it's very sore and very bruised. Initially I was happy to get time off school and work but now i'm so bored. I can't wait to go back to school on Monday unfortunatley I don't work again until the 21st  < I know you're all probably shocked that makes me sad but I miss everyone at work and I'm trying to save for college and driving school!!!!! Tonight I'm just gonna kick back and play HITMAN: Contracts on my PS2 (nothing like blowing other people's brains out to take your mind off pain ) This weekend I have some SERIOUS catching up to do on school work. I REALLY want to get out to the mall to pick up a couple of things but my mom thinks it'll be too much of a strain to walk around that much. and she's probably right.... I hurt my foot again standing in the shower this morning lol. well that's about all I have to report. oh and by the way.... congradulations Steph and Bryan love you guys and I miss talking to you * hugs for you both* |
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| it's been so long since i updated. it's been a crazy summer.
something feels weird between me and Ryan. it's like there's a big hole between us... i don't know what's wrong but i'm so scared. i don't want to lose him |
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